The good, the bad, and the ugly.

I had a great weekend overall. I ate too much but what's new! I love spending time with my husband and my dogs on the weekend but it seems like the time goes by way too fast.

I had a few successes this weekend and a few seriously unsuccessful events. The house is clean as a whistle, laundry done and I prepared tons of food for the week including my favorite white chicken chili. While I was cleaning and doing all my chores, I made a conscious effort to not avoid trips up and down the stairs and it worked. My butt was killing me on Sunday so I got a great workout. Instead of piling things up to take upstairs to the bedroom or downstairs to the basement, I took several trips. I'm going to use my new pedometer next weekend to see just how much that adds up!

Sunday morning I was feeling pretty good about myself until I got out of the shower and started digging through my closet to figure out if I had anything to wear to the reunion. I pulled out some of my super cute skirts thinking that maybe if I wore tight enough undergarments (God bless Spanx) that they would work. Now lets just say it's a good thing that I have a sense of humor because I laughed out loud at the fact that they wouldn't even go up above my knees. ONE OF THEM IS A MEDIUM PEOPLE...A MEDIUM! I used to wear a MEDIUM! It was probably even from the junior department. Even if I would have had 2 of them to stitch together it would have been too small. It doesn't seem that long ago that I could wear those. It was when I first met my husband. I've gotten that much bigger in the time I've been with him. I'm surprised he hasn't moved back!

Luckily I have a dress to wear that's "passable" and I'll find some super cute shoes. BLERG!

Part of my attitude adjustment is moving on after events like these and using them as more motivation instead of an excuse to eat more because I'm already huge anyway. I've been trying to think hard about what my life used to be like when I lost those hundred pounds and wore a medium and the answers are pretty simple. I was single and never really ate a meal and I was at the gym or on the treadmill at home all the time. Even on the weekends. To be sure I polled some friends who have known me a long time and their answer was "you were always at the gym". So, while I don't ever want to be single again, I do want to be back in that "exercise above all" mode because it allows me to be able to be more flexible with my eating and not obsessed with everything that goes in my mouth.

That said, my gym bag is packed and I'll be going to water aerobics after work. I will exercise every single day this week. I will not get rid of those skirts because I will fit into them again.