Sometimes when I'm doing really well, I feel invincible and then when I make a bad choice, I beat myself up. I've been doing that all day and I thought it would be a good idea to blog about it and move on.
Friday night my husband was out. In the past I would have "stocked up" for this which is something Lyn always manages to blog so openly and honestly about. I would have gotten all my favorite food and settled in for a night of eating and watching TV. I was very proud of myself for going to yoga and coming home and eating some shrimp, spinach and white beans. Not sure what happened but by the time I had gone to bed, I had probably managed to eat another 500 calories in a kitchen that has nothing but healthy food in it. Way too much peanut butter, some cereal, a piece of chocolate, some Pop Chips.
The rest of the weekend I ate way too much and polished it off by drinking way too many cheap margaritas which of course led to waking up too hungover to work out.
I got on the scale this morning and saw the damage and was really disappointed with myself. I think that's the best way to put it. I'm not really upset about what I ate and/or drank. More about the fact that I "checked out" for the weekend and didn't even try to make up for it with exercise.
This particular part of this journey for me is all about self discovery. The why behind it all. After dwelling on this for far too long today I've come to the conclusion that last week I pushed myself too hard towards a number on the scale and probably didn't eat enough. That left me exhausted and starving by Friday night. I know better than that and will try not to let it happen again.
I'm hoping to undo the damage very quickly since I have a 5k to run on Saturday morning. The plan for the week is less meat and more water, making sure to fuel myself properly for the crazy amounts of exercise I'm doing.
Moving on now!!! Here's to a healthy week!
I agree you just need to look forward, lesson learned. I have too many "lost weekends" to count and I'm not going to punish myself for them, I'm just going to try to avoid them in the future.
ReplyDeleteIt's all about the journey and what you discover about yourself on the way to your goal that will help you maintain. So every "failure" is just a lesson learned. I've learned a lot of lessons and I know that I will probably learn many more.
ReplyDeleteTrust yourself because you know what you need to do. Have a great race Saturday!
I feel like if you enjoyed yourself, really enjoyed yourself, and the things you consumed wasn't because of emotional stressors, then its okay, occasionally. Everyone always gets up in arms about comfort food being terrible, but its comforting for a reason. Turning to it, and only it is the issue more than the food its self. You've seen what it does, and you can choose to move past it, or you can choose not to.
ReplyDeleteI used to do that "stocking up" thing too and it's still a thought that crosses my mind on occasion. All you can do is move forward - a few bad days aren't the end of the world, and like you said, you learn from this and move forward.
ReplyDeleteI feel ya' in this post. I have a a saying I came up for days , or weekends, like this.
ReplyDeleteOwn it, learn from it, get over it, get on with it!
Each day is a new opportunity for success.
You are not alone. But I know you know that. Probably every single person - including the skinny ones - have done that at one time or another. Believe me, there was a time if I knew my hubby would be out, my eating became a free for all. But then I realized I'm only hurting me so I quit that mess. I also realized that I did that more often when I was constantly refusing to "let" myself have foods I really loved. Once I learned how to eat things in moderation, as a treat occasionally, I wasn't even tempted to closet eat any longer. It's good that you reflect on this but don't sit there too long - get up and get moving towards your goals!
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