I think I've mentioned before that I've been asking my friends questions about what I did when I lost 100 pounds before. For some reason I have no memory of what I ate (did I eat anything really?) or what I did. I just know that one day I woke up in a size 10.
One of the recurring themes of my answers from my friends is willpower. They say they've never known anyone with more willpower than me during that time. My sister reminded me we would go out after clubs to Waffle House and while everyone had piles of greasy food, I had dry toast. I don't remember ever feeling deprived either. It's just what I had to do...like going to work.
These days I feel like I have none of that left. It's like a muscle I haven't used in a while. It hurts to use it at first but maybe if i exercise it more it will become part of my everyday motions. I practiced this last night and after a bit of struggle it worked. I had one sensible and planned snack and a glass of milk after dinner and that's where it ended. I went to bed very proud of myself for exercising control over my food all day and I woke up a pound lighter.
I'm going to quit being a big fat baby and get this willpower muscle back into shape!
Wow this was really insightful for a short post. It reminded me of when I was a teen and decided I was too "chubby" and lost about ten pounds. I dunno what I did, but I do remember one morning getting up early and going for a run. It seemed easy back then. So easy. Oh to have that 16-year-old's energy.
ReplyDeleteTina, you are NOT being a baby and think of it this way...you are making great choices everyday and you are on your way on your weight loss journey. Take credit for what you have doen...like last night and the choices you made.
ReplyDeleteAs far as willpower somedays I feel I can conquer the earth and others I feel like I am lost in the woods. What you are feeling so normal and natural just keep your head up and you will do amazing things!
:-)
Brian
Willpower is such a fickle beast: sometimes it comes easily, sometimes it's nearly impossible.
ReplyDeleteI've been having the same struggles. When I started losing weight, it wasn't hard at all to completely write off certain foods. Now it's not so easy, it's a daily struggle.
I'm hoping it'll get easier with time.