Luckily I'm aware of it and ready to take control before it gets worse. I had a nice relaxing weekend at my moms in the mountains, the temperature has finally gone out of the 90's and I feel a little more like I can pull myself out of this.
As hard as I try I will never understand the way my mind works. I haven't lost a pound in over a month so what does my brain want to do? Give up. I never give up on anything else so what makes this different? I'm even showing some signs of jealousy towards my husband who has lost 20 pounds and is running 4.5 miles at a time. Everyone tells him how good he looks while I nod my head in agreement but can't help thinking how I've done twice as much and eaten half as much without any progress at all. Don't get my wrong I'm SO happy for him but sometimes it's hard to be a cheerleader when I'm feeling this way. My mom said I looked "glowing and healthy" but that's because I've wiped away the top layer of skin with my incessant sweating.
A week (or so) ago I did my 20 minute run and I haven't run since. It was so hard and I didn't feel well after and I think it scared me a little. It may have been the heat that got to me even though I was in the gym. The longer I go the worse it will be so I'm going to do some intervals tomorrow and see how I feel. I've also got my yoga class tomorrow night and I'm really excited to go again. I do see the irony in that I'm complaining about the heat but choose to do yoga in a 105 degree room. It's just so relaxing and if I close my eyes I can pretend I'm at the beach :)
Enough with the whining. It's a new week. Hope everyone has a good one!
I leave you with 2 great dog pictures from my weekend in the mountains.
It is a new week, and I am essentially starting anew after eight days of vacation. We can do it. And...I gave you a blogger award. Check my last post. You deserve it!
ReplyDeleteI agree with Jane. It's a new week, new beginning. Make October your month :)
ReplyDeleteOh your dogs are so cute!!! OK, just had to get that out of the way first, lol!
ReplyDeleteI hear ya on how much more work you are putting into this and yet how, on the surface, your husband is the more "successful" one. But we all know that women have it ten times harder when it comes to losing weight - men just don't have the same hormone issues that we do. I have to say that this go round with my diet? I did not want my husband to join me at all. Because he would have lost a ton of weight and I would have been discouraged. It happens! But don't give up - you are so strong and have worked so hard! Little by little, changes are happening - I think they happen so slowly for most of us that it's not until months later that we are able to look back and see how much we've changed. Hang in there, and get back to running - everyone has a bad run once in a while - shoot, I'm running four times a week now and believe me, they are not all good, not by a long shot! But I'm doing it, and you are too...and one of these days, we both will have our Half Marathon medals to show the world!
Hey girl!!!! I'm so glad you got to go to the mountains this wknd and see your mom....and your babies are precious!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're feeling so defeated right now...but it sounds like you're ready to get back in the groove. I'm not sure if you're already doing this, but I think you should take progress pics, even if you don't feel like posting them right now. Eventually...you will be able to look back and see just how much good all of the exercise and watching the food intake is doing for you. I believe in you girl, and I know you believe in yourself. Did I mention I had a terrible eating weekend???? Up 7 lbs. this morning!! Blech!! Well...a bad week/weekend isn't going to beat us....back on track together! :)
New week, fresh start. We tend to hit these moments where we wonder where we are going and if we are still headed in the right direction.. You are. Keep going. Never give up and don't look back! Push forward!
ReplyDeleteGreat pics by the way :)
meh... it isn't a race. It is your life. Don't compete with the people around you. Celebrate the benefits of getting healthier. You are your best cheerleader. I keep forgetting that sometimes myself, and that is when I slip and falter.
ReplyDeleteHope this is a strong week!
Cheers,
Missa
LosingEthel
Just keep pushing through, and don't give up!
ReplyDeleteCute pics!
I'm sure you'll get back into the groove soon. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteHang in there, gurl. You've got this.
ReplyDeleteWhy is it that guys can lose 10 pounds just by walking in the door of the gym?!? Truly, not fair.
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