Monday, September 14, 2009

surviving

Thank you Tammy for the comment asking where I've been. I was just thinking this weekend how I need to be more accountable for my blog even when I'm feeling miserable. It's nice to have friends whether they be people you see all the time or my blog friends.

Last week was one of my toughest weeks at work EVER but I managed to throw my best friend her birthday party which was very successful. Saturday and Sunday I spent mostly feeling sorry for myself.

This morning I had a slap in the face that kinda put things in perspective (again). My aunt, my moms sister, the 2nd youngest of 10, took her own life late last night. My mom is okay but it's my grandmother we all worry about. She's deteriorating from Alzheimer's and has to be told what happened every 5 minutes. They are all in Minnesota and everyone who isn't is headed there. My sisters and I won't be going but we will surely be here thinking of everyone there and mourning the loss of our dear aunt.

So that's where I am right now. I wish there was more I could do but I'm a little lost sitting at my desk staring at my screen. I have to interview a freelancer and then may just go to the bar to hang out with my sister for a while and then go home and love on my dogs until hubby comes home. Hug your people. Hug your pets. I need to take my own advice much more often.

21 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry for your family's sadness; that is a tough situation, esp with your grandmother's condition.

    Hope you get through these trying times in one piece.

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  2. I am sorry for your loss. Any sudden death wheater from an accident or suicide is tough to handle. I will hug more too.

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  3. Oh, no. I'm so sorry for the loss of your aunt.

    I'm thinking of you and your family.

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  4. I'm new to your blog but am so sorry for your loss and the stress it's placed on your entire family. Blessings to you and your family-

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  5. So sorry for your loss. My family had a close death this year too so I know how you feel. Someone shared this with me after our tragedy and I'd like to share it with you:

    Life can change in the blink of an eye.

    Thank goodness God never blinks.

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  6. So sorry to hear about the loss of your aunt. It is never easy to lose a loved one, but in this particular fashion, it is even more difficult. Having had this happen to a family member, I can certainly understand your grief and disbelief. I'm sending thoughts and prayers to you and your family. AND, you are absolutely right, hug those you love as often as possible, and enjoy each moment you have with them.

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  7. That must be very hard. Thinking of you and your family.

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  8. I'm so sorry to hear about your aunt. It is hard to imagine someone being so distraught that that is the only answer. My brother-in-law took his life a few years ago. The only thing you can do is stick close together, focus on the good memories and take care of each other. My thoughts are with you.

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  9. Tina, so sorry for your loss. I pray that your family will finf comfort in this difficult time. God bless.

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  10. I am so sorry for your loss. I'll pray for your family and that your grandma has some clarity and peace.

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  11. I'm so sorry for your loss - my thoughts are with you.

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  12. Tina I am sorry that you are having to go through this! HUGS!

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  13. Oh Tina, what a terrible thing. I'm so sorry for you and your family.

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  14. I'm so sorry for your family's loss.

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  15. It's so sad that she felt she needed to do this. I'm sorry for your loss - and my sympathies are with you and your family at this time of sorrow.

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  16. I am so sorry for you loss. I am sorry for the pain she was in, and for the pain you are now all in. Big hugs.

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  17. I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your Aunt. And having a relative who is having such major issues as your grandmother is must be so hard.
    My thoughts and prayers go to you and your family.

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  18. What a stark reminder of keeping your priorities in place. Life is too precious....and too short.

    My grandmother had Alzheimer's for many years, so I understand the pain behind that, too.

    I'm grieving with you...you're not alone in your sadness girl. I'm here for you. Email me anytime...if you don't feel like it...know that I am keeping you and your family in my daily thoughts and prayers. I pray the storm clouds part soon and once again you can feel the sunshine on your beautiful face.

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  19. I'm so sorry for what your family is going through. It's never easy losing a loved one, especially when it's hard to understand why they're not here. You and your family are in my prayers.

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  20. Oh, Tina - I'm so sorry to hear about your aunt and will hold you all in my prayers.

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  21. I'm sorry about your aunt. That's hard. Thank you for your post and your honesty about how you feel.

    I am cheering you on today...

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