Tuesday, January 12, 2010


I just went to the gym for 30 minutes and didn't work out.

I had to wait a little later to go because I had a call this morning and the place was packed. At 10am! I thought for sure the guy just hanging on the edge was about done with his swim but no. He just walked the length of the pool once every 1o minutes. I sat in the hot tub hoping that someone would be finished but 3o minutes later, I was still sitting there doing nothing. At this point my hair is wet and I only have my bathing suit, towel and flip flops so there's not a lot of options. I have to be somewhere at noon so I had no choice but to come home.

I guess it was the icing on the cake after stupidly stepping on the scale this morning, followed by a visit to the wild world of web for job postings of which there are 2. That combined with a failed attempt to exercise has me in a bad way today. Most of the time I'm so optimistic but today it seems like nothing is worth it. 3 weeks of 6 days a week at the gym has me less than 2 pounds down and I'm not sure if I can ever make enough money on my own. The old self doubt is creeping up on me again and has taken over my brain today.

It's 11 now and I have to shower and go out. I have accomplished nothing yet today but logging my calories and this great big whine fest. I'm hoping the rest of the day is a little better.

3:30 pm Updated to say my business partner gave me a huge kick in the ass and I feel better on the creative front. On the fat front, I went to the grocery store to pick up a few things, and bought a bag of candy. I took a single bite on the way home and threw it out the window. Sorry for littering but this was couple thousand calorie disaster averted. Instead I'm making us a nice curry. Victory is mine (said in a Stewie voice)


  1. Jan. and Feb. a big months for the gym rats. Things should get better, I'd assume.

    Hang in there, you're gonna find something soon. Working on your own may open up some new doors for you. I still think you're too talented to be down for too long. Keep at it.

  2. Sorry for your troubles Tina. If you think misery loves company go read Shelley's blog and see the sort of day she had yesterday!

  3. Hang in there, Tina! You are doing awesome! I hope your day gets better!

  4. Laughing at Helen's comment...

    Good on ya for tossing that candy and turning your day around! Don't let the scale be your boss. Hide the damn thing and go by your clothes and measurements - I swear, it will save your sanity (says she who recently banished her scale to the closet).

  5. Listen....really...truly....

    You have gained muscles while working out at the gym. Which is why the scale is not showing a huge movement. Let's say you gained 3 pounds of muscle in the past 3 weeks....that would mean you really lost 3 more pounds of fat than your scale is showing. KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK. And remember that building muscle will increase your metabolism all day long...make you feel better, make you look better!

    Do you take measurements? If you do not have a body fat monitor...definitely take measurements once or twice a week. I bet you will see some action there! :)

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  7. Don't you just HATE the water walkers who hog entire lanes when they could use the therapy pool?!? By March, you'll have your lanes back. What a coup to throw candy out the window! Some kid on a bike will appreciate you!

  8. I'm proud of you! That takes a lot to throw it out the window. Good for you! And don't worry. It'll come off.