I really didn't even want to post today but all the amazing comments I got on yesterdays post made me realize I have to keep going through good and bad. If it wasn't for this blog, I may have given it all up today.
I gained a freakin pound but as the oh so wise Mr. Sh*t told me, "know that what you're doing is better than what you're NOT doing (binging, slothing)". So I did exactly what he said. He's kinda like my male Oprah. I do whatever he tells me to do. I'm sure he'll be thrilled with that comparison ;)
Yesterday after my post I did go to the pool but not for an easy swim by any means. I rocked 40 laps in 45 minutes. At one point there was a "real" swimmer girl who kept looking at me and I almost said out loud "I'm not racing you so so stop looking at me you dumb $*%#!". I calmed myself down and remembered I was there to change my mood and not take it out on some girl who dared look at me. I swear I'm not a mean person but sometimes....grrrr. I felt awesome when I finished and too a long soak in the hot tub even though I had a ton of work to do.
My reaction this morning was downright stupid. My first thoughts were along the lines of "I can eat like crap and gain weight so I might as well" and so on. Later when my husband saw my tears and reminded me how much better I said I felt. My reply was "well what I really feel is tired, sore, sad and pissed of at my stupid sister who woke me up with a stupid drunk phone call after I'd gone to bed twice this week."
I ALMOST didn't go this morning. I still had tears in my eyes as I was staring at the moon getting in the car. But I went because I knew everyone was cheering me on. My husband and my blog friends are my biggest fans and I'm not letting them down. I did a pretty kick-ass half hour of c25k week 4 and then another half hour of incline intervals walking. I managed 3.25 miles in an hour which means my time is improving ever so slightly.
Speaking of my husband, he has lost 15 pounds now and I'm so proud of him. He will be in onederland by next week. I'm glad he's seeing progress because it's been a little hard for him to adjust to drinking very little beer and only having potatoes once a week :)
The point of all of this is to get my mind to the point where "going back" is out of the question. Where I don't want to eat like crap and sit on the couch. I'm getting there.
Tina,
ReplyDeleteI pointed this out to someone else. You are drinking water on schedule, and 128 ounces of water weighs 8 pounds. Need to lose a pound quick, pee... You are doing great and you know that !! Relax, continue on and it will come together...
I'm with Allan, water weighs a lot! But you are doing great and I am proud of you for not letting all of this get you down to the point of quitting! You are inspiring!
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ReplyDeleteThat's great advice from Mr Sh*t!
ReplyDeleteI think you're doing great!
High 5 to your hubs!
LMAO@ the male Oprah, lol...he's awesome. :) I love him, too.
ReplyDeleteCan I admit that I got a little teary-eyed reading this? I know you've had a really rough week Tina, and I'm just so damn proud of you for pressing on in the face of adversity, proving that you know you are so worth it. You make me beam with pride. Don't forget...we're all going to meet the Sunday after Labor Day weekend for a workout and lunch/shopping at the Farmer's Market...can NOT wait to see you again girl! :)
I think it's those workouts that you DON'T want to go to that are the most important - you are gaining strength on the inside and that is a big freakin' deal. Hang in there - this is just a dumb blip on the dumb dumb dumb scale.
ReplyDeleteAnd don't forget to take pride in making GREAT choices! It's really easy to use those blips as excuses to allow old habits to sneak back in. But you're not using it as an excuse, and you're not allowing it to distract you. Good job!
ReplyDeleteMr.Sh*t always knows just what we need to hear, doesn't he? I think your comparison to Oprah isn't too far off, lol. Keep at it and the results will come.
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xo
Hey, it's a little blip - you've done terrific work so far, and this tiny tiny gain will soon be gone again. I know how easy it is to think "sod it, I may as well eat then" but actually if you do succumb you just feel worse anyway, so what's the point! A bit of exercise or a day being good on the food, and you'll soon be back in a positive mood. I know you can do it, so I'm routing for you!
ReplyDeleteYay! Kudos for not letting a crap day get in the way of your progress. There will always be something or someone to get you down.. but it is still so worth it!
ReplyDeleteCheers,
Missa
LosingEthel
Good for you for hanging in there Tina! I've had a back-slide in the last few weeks, and i was really struggling to get back on track. It's reading posts like yours that help motivate me and keep me going. Thank you for sharing and for not giving up!
ReplyDeleteHugs!
This is really what it is all about - just working through the bad and the good! You are doing an amazing job!
ReplyDeleteHang in there. And not that you are - but don't compare your weight loss to your husbands. You are two seperate folks (and men lose weight so much easier than us - at least I tell myself that when my husband easily loses weight:)
ReplyDeleteYou are doing great! I find this journey is the hardest when we've done what we should and don't see the results we believe we deserve. But if we can fight through this what we are looking for we will see.
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