Thank you all so much for all of your sweet comments. It helps me SO much and I find it funny how I want to do well for you all as much as I want to for myself. I like to have good news to report in my blog but I promised myself in the beginning that I would be totally honest about what's going on in my life. Even the bad days!
So I decided to survey the damage from the chocolate chip cookie disaster by getting on the scale this morning. I weigh 4 pounds more than I did last Friday. Cue the tears again. I was actually trying to convince myself I worked really hard this week but if I was to be really honest with myself, I didn't. Sure, I made a few good decisions but I made some bad ones too. I'm the queen of denial. Must be the 13 years of Catholic school.
Can I just say that if my coworker mentions the fact that she has a half day and is going to her husbands company picnic one more time I'm going to slap her? It's the only sunny day we've had in a million years and I'm stuck here at my desk with the promise of another rainy weekend.
After another morning in tears, I'm listening to BBC World on the way into work and hearing this horrible story about a family fleeing Pakistan that had to leave their son behind because he had polio and couldn't make the journey. They left him with some bread and water and are just hoping that he lives. Kinda puts things into perspective and it gave me the slap in the face I deserved for being a big fat whiner.
I have to keep going and I have to keep up! My husband hit normal BMI the other day and has been running a LOT. I'm so happy for him but I don't want to be left behind. I'm packed and ready for butt kicking night at the gym which will be 30-40 minutes on the treadmill and then my water aerobics class. I'm making a promise to myself to do 6-7 days of gym workouts instead of the 2-3 I've been doing. I was counting my 20 minute dog walk in the morning as a workout and that is mostly spent letting the dogs sniff around and pee on everything. So, it's either work out more or develop a cocaine habit which is probably way more expensive than a trainer, not to mention dangerous and illegal :)
I hope everyone has a great weekend and that it's sunny where you live! I will be going to our new farmers market, a garden festival, and to see Star Trek. I heart Simon Pegg!!!
Good grief. That story about the Pakistani family does put our little trials and tribulations in perspective, doesn't it? Guess letting go of my computer for a couple of days really isn't the end of the world.
ReplyDeleteHey, keep at this "thing", we're making progress. I think just the mere fact that we ARE concerned about what we eat and its effect on us is a sign we're learning. A few months ago, we'd just eat the damned things then go on our merry way, with nary a care in the world. That, to me, is progress, and that means we're doing good stuff here. Keep it up.
Good call on the coke habit. I think that stuff has a lot of carbs anyway ;) Walking the pups is great, but it only counts as exercise if globules of sweat are firing off you like a lawn sprinkler. Get after it!
ReplyDeleteI feel your pain tho; second rainy weekend in a row in the forecast for us, too.
Gaining 4 will soon be a thing of the past - just like the Catholic school (I didn't go that route but still suffered the Catechism every Saturday during prime cartoon time so I know where you're at).
ReplyDeleteSimon Pegg is a scream! I'm trying to remember the name of that movie he was in recently - was it "Cops" or something like it? No - "Hot Fuzz", that's it. Gory but very funny - if that makes any sense at all. Is he really in Star Trek? Gotta see it.
Hang on - the sun will be back.
Coke has carbs!?!?!?
ReplyDeleteWe are going to see Star Trek this weekend too. I will enjoy it, but Hubby will talk about for the next two friggin' weeks!
Tina the good news about the rain is that i heard we are officially out of our drought...I might wash the car this year! :-) But I say go ahead and slap the coworker. you'll feel better.
And you know what, I don't think you *really* gain 4 pounds. That is 14,000 calories. But you have a great plan in place and next week will be smiles instead of tears.
Yay! The Farmer's Market, love it! Our little local one just started last week. I don't know why we missed it. Thinking about walking to the Farmer's Market tomorrow. Shall we compare what we find?
ReplyDeleteHave a great weekend!
Ah, being brutally honest about what we eat is so painful. But it will help in the long run. It's just not fun at the moment!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for the rainy weekend forecast - go ahead and at least mentally slap your coworker!
I love Simon Pegg too - didn't know he was in ST!
ReplyDeleteAm hacked off about the weather - it is horrendous here and tomorrow promises to be just as delightful. And I soooo wanted a walk - grrr!
I am sure that 4lbs cannot be down to 9 cookies - keep on working out and they will be well gone next week.
Sounds like you have a nice weekend set up.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're so down about the weight gain. Its all part of the process, though. If this is a life change for you, then there will be weeks when you gain. It happens to everyone - fat or thin. The trick is not to get too upset and start to use food as comfort.
Keep going, just like you said! If my hubby was losing weight, I would be so competitive - so try to beat him!!! If he can do it, so can you.
Have a great weekend!
oh my heart aches for that Pakistani family! And even more, there are so many stories out there I do not hear about. SAD!
ReplyDeleteKeep going on your healthy lifestyle - we are in this for life!
Just saying hello and good luck! Our weights are about the same... we can do this!
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